The sky just got a whole lot brighter

She cares.
And that's all that really matters.
I love you babe. (:

=(

Let's say I tell my mother that I don't have my results for last sem because the system jammed up. And so my results were erased from the system and there is absolutely no chance of ever getting them back!
You think she'll buy it?

In threes

Twist to the right
And then turn to the left
Be careful now. It's fragile.
Yes that's it.
Red. Blue. Green. Yellow
I have seen them all. Felt them all
A change of hands
Now you try.
It's easy. She's easy.
My heart- The Rubrik Cube.

Paint me the pretty picture




I love thee, I love but thee
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold
And the stars grow old.
~ Willam Shakespeare ~

“If I were the moon, I know where I would fall down”

In the face of all that we can lose in a day, in an instance, wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it all together.
Meredith Grey

The reality's some pretty powerful stuff. Funny how you only realise that when you're totally disconnected from everything that matters to you. Yesterday was refreshing. I miss that. Quite abit. That serene feeling lasted for what 5 hours and then before I knew it I was thrown back into what I detest the most- reality. Oh well. Atleast on the bright side (whatever little there is of it left), I think I might actually know what I want! =)

I need a job! Fast!

Meet Stuffy-Muffy!

I love you stuffy! (although we haven't really met but what the heck yes?) =)

I'm losing everything I believe in. Talk about being random huh? Okay so maybe I'm not being random. I'm confusing myself. Yes that's it. I'm confused. Ah much better.

Move through the world as though it offers no resistance

I can't pretend I am unnerved by what happened just now. I can't keep pretending anymore. For that split second, I felt real. Something I haven't felt in a bit. The nonchalent act's wearing off. Fear. Anger. Guilt. Disgust. Helplessness. You name it. I felt it all. Just in that fraction of that second. Overwhelming? Yes pretty much.
It's not funny anymore. Especially when your mother begs that you get your act together. I don't know. How did I let myself mess up this much? My pirorities have gone awry. Nothing bothers me anymore. And that's not a good thing. I do what makes ME happy for the moment. Fuck the consequences. Fuck the people who matter. How did I let it go this far?
And yes my dear mother I am cold and heartless. You couldn't have put it any better if I must say so myself.

All that matters

Yea sure I dont know what I'm doing and neither do you. Fair enough. I have always envisioned things to be a beguiling mix of both the ordinary and the extraodinary. And I am living that. I'm making mistakes and learning from them. I'm living for the moment. And as scary as that might be, I'm discovering different aspects of myself that I never knew about.
So go on then, continue judging me. Tell me I'm an impulsive, irrational wreck. Tell me I'm screwing up my life. Why stop at thinking all these stuff yes? Hah.

come home soon button. =(

The Becoming

My exams are over. I have 3 months free. With absolutely nothing to do. And yet I dont feel the slightest bit happy. gah.

I'm weird

You know you're weird,

when you get emo while watching BINGO.

when you spend a good 15 minutes trying to raise one eyebrow while keeping the other down.

when you refuse to believe that Eygpt is part of Africa even though you know its true.

when you watch the same episode of America's Next Top Model 23 times JUST to hear Jade talk about her brunetteness and to hear the rest of her extensive vocabulary!

when you believe the weather's in sync with your mood swings.

when you think Csikszentmihalyi is the coolest name ever.

Mess

I am one big mess. I'm breaking promises. I'm doing things that I shouldn't be doing. I'm hurting the very person who means the world to me. I'm fucking up. Real bad.

Six and a half days

The bloody coordinator from work pissed me off. Like seriously what the hell is wrong with her???
My paper sucked. Big time. I couldnt make sense of anything.
Stuffed my face with doughnuts in a desperate attempt to lift my low spirits. I ended up feeling worse. That is of course after I figured out how much calories the doughnuts contained! That round thing in my middle (I think it was previously referred to as my tummy) is expanding. At an alarming rate.
I am a little confused now.
And the person that I would really like to talk to now is MIA.
Sigh. I love my life.