Running to stand still

I know it's not perfect, but it's life. Life is messy sometimes.
-Grey's Anatomy-

Messy is an understatement isn't it?

Some you give away

How do you know when irrational exuberance has unduly escalated the practical, *yawn* boring side?
I like how everyone assumes that I am governed by my whims. And to make things clear, I am not running away this time. I am merely doing what I feel I should be doing. I have thought about the consequences and I acknowledge them. So I guess that's that.

My way home is through you

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.
-Maya Angelou-

Uh-huh

Let the reigns go loose. Yea right.

Well here's the shit. I dont quite know who or what to believe anymore. The benefit of the doubt card's being used a tad too often. And I'm being steered in a direction that I am pretty sure that I wouldn't like to head in.
Time to tighten the reins Thuls.

What comes after the blues

We create our own circumstances by our choices. And with the kind of choices I have made and the impending circumstances that I have landed myself into, Devi has never judged me. Not once.
She calls me after weeks to run an apparently bizarre idea pass me in her drugged state (She's down with the flu) and somehow the call just makes my day.
And as usual, she provides me with another of her 'live vicariously through thuls plans' which I don't quite take too but that's besides the point. Her ingenious plans (as always) leaves us both in giggles. I miss her!

Here's why I love her. -_-
1)She decided to set us both up, one v-day with these two guys. (She has never met these guys. She knew nothing about them except for the fact that they were skinheads! I later found out that they had pretty notorious reputations. A small fact she forgot to add she claims. *slaps forehead*)
2) She named her drawing of the penis after me.
3) She convinced an entire bunch of SAJC guys that I has a sex change in Thailand. And they actually believed her.
4) She gives my number out to random guys. All because she thinks I should have a little fun.
5) She never lets me (or anyone for that matter) forget about the time I fell right smack into the mud.

"I slept with someone in fall out boy and all I got was this stupid song written about me"

Thulasi says:
i'm in love!
Thulasi says:
with chace!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahah WHO?
joyce.†*~ says:
rephrase: who is it THIS TIME
Thulasi says:
the dude in my dp!
joyce.†*~ says:
he looks vaguely familiar
joyce.†*~ says:
is he from GOSSIP GIRL
Thulasi says:
YES!
Thulasi says:
the official love of my life!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahaa looks like SOMEONE has been watching it already!
joyce.†*~ says:
he's nathan right
Thulasi says:
LOL
Thulasi says:
yesss
Thulasi says:
i am watching it now!
joyce.†*~ says:
uhohhh ADDICT IN THE MAKING
Thulasi says:
YES
Thulasi says:
i'm addicted
Thulasi says:
and so so in love
Thulasi says:
i can hear the wedding bells already!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahah oh goodness
joyce.†*~ says:
have u ALREADY forgotten abt ur past love JAMES
Thulasi says:
bye james!
joyce.†*~ says:
GASP
joyce.†*~ says:
FICKLE WOMAN
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
i know
Thulasi says:
but this time i'm sure!
Thulasi says:
very sure
joyce.†*~ says:
poor james
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
he's crying his heart out now
Thulasi says:
but he'll get over it
Thulasi says:
just the same way how wenty ( that's my nick for wentworth btw) got over it
Thulasi says:
poor jamesy!
Thulasi says:
sigh
joyce.†*~ says:
HAHA WENTY?!!
joyce.†*~ says:
wenty is GAY
Thulasi says:
oh that was before he turned gay
Thulasi says:
didnt you hear?!?!
he was so heartbrokened that he turned to men after i left
Thulasi says:
poor dude. he was devastated!
joyce.†*~ says:
OHHH yes yes that must be it
joyce.†*~ says:
u lil heartbreaker, you!
Thulasi says:
yes of course!
Thulasi says:
nah. it just happens
Thulasi says:
these things
Thulasi says:
SIGHS
joyce.†*~ says:
this uncontrollable, voracious appeal u have on men
joyce.†*~ says:
tsk tsk
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
they find my chubbiness adorable
Thulasi says:
funny huh
Thulasi says:
esp when they have those leggy stick like creatures around them
Thulasi says:
i think people refer to them as models!
Thulasi says:
yes that's it
joyce.†*~ says:
oh goodness i saw a string of those things jaywalking today in orchard rd
joyce.†*~ says:
utterly disgusting.
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
weird looking things
Thulasi says:
unnatural i must say
joyce.†*~ says:
like daddylonglegs


I miss you momo! :(

Ashes of dreams you let die



And so I got all worried for no reason. Things are the still very much the same.
I love you guys.(:

The trick is to keep breathing

So I was at work, handing out forms for a parenting talk and then one of my student's mother comes up to me and asks for my good name. That kinda caught me off guard. I stared at her blankly for a good five seconds. She must have have thought that I was retarded or something. But really now what the hell is a good name?! Why couldn't she asked for it the way normal people would have?
And then the senior teacher insists that she monitors me while I shut the windows. Seriously. Does she think I have never seen a window in my life before or something?!?! And let's say that in the event that I haven't seen window (that's highly unlikely but this is hypothetical so practically anything goes), how difficult can shutting the windows be?! It's practically idiot-proof! Goodness. These people will be the death of me.
I need shoes! More shoes rather. I love shoes the way Carrie Bradshaw loves them! Who can forget the Sex and the City episode in which she begs a mugger to take everything but her precious, strappy Blahniks! I would have done the same!
Another long day at work tomorrow. Gah.

All I can do is to keep breathing. That works out fine for me. Well for now atleast.

Over the hills and far away

It's horribly exhausting to be incessantly worrying about doing the right thing. Be it about what I am going to major in to how I should deal with a certain issue or rather a good handful of issues or simply just whether I really should have taken that last cookie.
The summer's turning out to be the worst holiday I ever had. I haven't seen my friends in ages. I'm terribly broke. I spend most of my time at work. Yes I'm growing to love the kids. But I hate how they run the centre. There isn't a system and that irks me. I like things organised! I go in everyday and they're like do what ever you want. Okay that suits me just fine. But this whatever I want comes with restrictions. As to how that works, I really have no idea. Honestly, sometimes I just feel like throttling the coordinator. Really.
Rabeeah and I are meeting Siti this Saturday. Well atleast that's the plan. Funny how I'm not the least bit excited about seeing Siti. I haven't seen her in what four year? I'm actually not too keen on meeting her. Funny huh since most of my best memories were made with her- From band practices, to sports day to calling the orphanage and pretending to be her form teacher so that we could go out to hanging out at her class to 'two weeks boyfriends' to soccer matches to sly planning so that I could have a lone moment with my crush to outrageous stories created and told to the operations manager. Maybe I want to leave those memories at that. It's been four years. God knows what might have changed during that time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMO!

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