Thursday is in two days and im starting to get the cold feet. Just yesterday, I was reading the message you sent me again. Maybe the message didnt mean anything or maybe im thinking way too much but somehow I just felt weird reading it. I know you gave me all that you had to offer and I appreciate it. I need to tell you lots of stuff but im not sure if I should. I dont even know for sure whether you have moved on. I dont want you to take a step back because of what I have to say to you. Sigh. Im terribly afraid I wont be able to handle meeting you. Aargh. Why did I have to suggest it in the first place? Me and my fantastic ideas.