All that you can't leave behind.

I like being in love with you.
sigh.

Unopened letters to the World

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
dear penpal, how are you? hope you are fine. Anyway how's school?did you get your test marks back yet?well, there's nothing much to say. Did you know i went to my friends place at bukit timah? Her mother fetched us in a station wagon and then she drove us to Han's for lunch. Do you know she gave my friend a $50 note and asked her to have lunch?

thuls says:
HAHAH OMG I WROTE THIS????

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
We had lunch(just the 4 of us)(meaning me, Jia qian, Gurveen and Liying).Then we drove to her house. I nearly fainted when I saw her house, it was beautiful. So, what's new?

thuls says:
omg i did

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
Are you having any stress? I'm very scared about the BCG and the PSLE. Does your teacher want you to go to remedials. oops i forgot to ask you how your prefect job getting along. Good i suppose! does it affect your studies? well let me tell you a story(sort of)

thuls says:
OMG STOP!

thuls says:
hahahahahahahahahah

thuls says:
i feel like digging a hole and burying myself!


a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
One day my teacher was going to her friend's house which was on the 21st story. She pressed the "door close" but a boy of 21 or in his twenties slipped through. He did not know what button to press and press 19 and he kept looking at her. She felt very uncomfortable. She was pregnant with her first child, jacqueline. But her stomach was not big at all. Then..

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
call me to find out the rest!

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
OMG CLASSIC!TELL ME STORY HALFWAY AND SAY CALL ME TO FIND OUT THE REST

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
scared i never call you is it?

thuls says:
HAHAHAH

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
HAHHAHAHAHA
LOSER

thuls says:
I DONT REMEMBER EH

thuls says:
ASS!

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
YEA DAMMIT

thuls says:
-_-

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
now i wanna know the damn story!!!

thuls says:
but i cant remember it myself!

thuls says:
=(

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
so sad. I was cleaning my whole room today. All the drawers everything and i found this. I wanted to die laughing

thuls says:
HAHAHA

thuls says:
i can just imagine! =/

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
wah then i read the last part i was like omg THUTS WAS IRRITATING EVEN THEN. HAHAHAHAHAH

Between order and randomness

Sometimes you feel euphoric. Everything is sublime and has an aura, and suddenly you are intensely nauseated and then you are gone.
- The Time Traveler's Wife-

You have dug your own grave, now lie in it.

Don't. You'll ruin it.

Ruin what?

This. Us.

Don't you want to know?

No.

Why not?

I don't know.

You're afraid.

No. I'm not.

You are.

What's there to be afraid of love?
There's no way back.

It's alright ma (I'm only bleeding)

'But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat.
'We're all mad here.
I'm mad. You're mad.'

-Alice in Wonderland-

Take me back to the start

I'm waiting for that sickening thud at the end of all of this. And hopefully that jolts me back to reality.
gah. I hate school.

You stop to wonder why you're here not there

It was familiar. That's as far as it goes. sigh.

I like long hair. I like men. Together, bone-shudderingly wrong.
-The chocolate run-
Took that right out of my mouth! (:

What do you go home to?

You would think with every goodbye said, saying goodbye would come almost naturally. Far from it. I loathe you for not being able to say goodbye when you should have. I'm not going to make the same mistake. This feels surreal. And part of me feels like things would be back to normal tomorrow. Like they always do. But I guess enough is enough.
Dear God, give me the strength to get through this. My heart feels like it is going to break. My eyes are sore and I feel like caving in.
Goodbye my friend. I'll miss you.

The search for something more

There we go again.
SIGH.

Nothing left but to say goodbye

This too shall pass. =(

It gets the worst at night

The things that matter, we forget and those that don't, we remember all so well. Funny ain't it?
I hate having stomach cramps. The cramps are getting a hell lot more bearable. I no longer have to writher on my bed like a spastic snake. But they're still pretty much there so bummer for me.
Friday with the kids:
We spent a good 15 minutes deciding who farted cause the room really stank. seriously. ugh. Productive class time don't you think!
The kids are amazing at remembering things. Maybe I should have kept that in mind when I screamed fuck after slamming my knee into the wooden table. The whole bunch of them started chanting that after me! And that was when it was almost time for them to go home!!! Imagine what would have happened if their parents had walked in on them chanting fuck! *shudders* There goes my job man. Actually on second thought, that doesn't sound too bad an idea does it now?
And yes it gets the worst at night. =(
I love lazy Saturday afternoons. When you're dead bored, you end up blogging about boring, random stuff. gah. I AM boring.

Can't stop this thing we have started

I miss work already. Gah.

I'm part of you indefinitely.

The places that you have come to fear the most



I have a jelly belly.
:(

The Leavers Dance

When someone is in your heart, they're never really truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times.
-For One More Day-

Tell me about it.

Running to stand still

I know it's not perfect, but it's life. Life is messy sometimes.
-Grey's Anatomy-

Messy is an understatement isn't it?

Some you give away

How do you know when irrational exuberance has unduly escalated the practical, *yawn* boring side?
I like how everyone assumes that I am governed by my whims. And to make things clear, I am not running away this time. I am merely doing what I feel I should be doing. I have thought about the consequences and I acknowledge them. So I guess that's that.

My way home is through you

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.
-Maya Angelou-

Uh-huh

Let the reigns go loose. Yea right.

Well here's the shit. I dont quite know who or what to believe anymore. The benefit of the doubt card's being used a tad too often. And I'm being steered in a direction that I am pretty sure that I wouldn't like to head in.
Time to tighten the reins Thuls.

What comes after the blues

We create our own circumstances by our choices. And with the kind of choices I have made and the impending circumstances that I have landed myself into, Devi has never judged me. Not once.
She calls me after weeks to run an apparently bizarre idea pass me in her drugged state (She's down with the flu) and somehow the call just makes my day.
And as usual, she provides me with another of her 'live vicariously through thuls plans' which I don't quite take too but that's besides the point. Her ingenious plans (as always) leaves us both in giggles. I miss her!

Here's why I love her. -_-
1)She decided to set us both up, one v-day with these two guys. (She has never met these guys. She knew nothing about them except for the fact that they were skinheads! I later found out that they had pretty notorious reputations. A small fact she forgot to add she claims. *slaps forehead*)
2) She named her drawing of the penis after me.
3) She convinced an entire bunch of SAJC guys that I has a sex change in Thailand. And they actually believed her.
4) She gives my number out to random guys. All because she thinks I should have a little fun.
5) She never lets me (or anyone for that matter) forget about the time I fell right smack into the mud.

"I slept with someone in fall out boy and all I got was this stupid song written about me"

Thulasi says:
i'm in love!
Thulasi says:
with chace!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahah WHO?
joyce.†*~ says:
rephrase: who is it THIS TIME
Thulasi says:
the dude in my dp!
joyce.†*~ says:
he looks vaguely familiar
joyce.†*~ says:
is he from GOSSIP GIRL
Thulasi says:
YES!
Thulasi says:
the official love of my life!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahaa looks like SOMEONE has been watching it already!
joyce.†*~ says:
he's nathan right
Thulasi says:
LOL
Thulasi says:
yesss
Thulasi says:
i am watching it now!
joyce.†*~ says:
uhohhh ADDICT IN THE MAKING
Thulasi says:
YES
Thulasi says:
i'm addicted
Thulasi says:
and so so in love
Thulasi says:
i can hear the wedding bells already!
joyce.†*~ says:
hahah oh goodness
joyce.†*~ says:
have u ALREADY forgotten abt ur past love JAMES
Thulasi says:
bye james!
joyce.†*~ says:
GASP
joyce.†*~ says:
FICKLE WOMAN
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
i know
Thulasi says:
but this time i'm sure!
Thulasi says:
very sure
joyce.†*~ says:
poor james
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
he's crying his heart out now
Thulasi says:
but he'll get over it
Thulasi says:
just the same way how wenty ( that's my nick for wentworth btw) got over it
Thulasi says:
poor jamesy!
Thulasi says:
sigh
joyce.†*~ says:
HAHA WENTY?!!
joyce.†*~ says:
wenty is GAY
Thulasi says:
oh that was before he turned gay
Thulasi says:
didnt you hear?!?!
he was so heartbrokened that he turned to men after i left
Thulasi says:
poor dude. he was devastated!
joyce.†*~ says:
OHHH yes yes that must be it
joyce.†*~ says:
u lil heartbreaker, you!
Thulasi says:
yes of course!
Thulasi says:
nah. it just happens
Thulasi says:
these things
Thulasi says:
SIGHS
joyce.†*~ says:
this uncontrollable, voracious appeal u have on men
joyce.†*~ says:
tsk tsk
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
they find my chubbiness adorable
Thulasi says:
funny huh
Thulasi says:
esp when they have those leggy stick like creatures around them
Thulasi says:
i think people refer to them as models!
Thulasi says:
yes that's it
joyce.†*~ says:
oh goodness i saw a string of those things jaywalking today in orchard rd
joyce.†*~ says:
utterly disgusting.
Thulasi says:
yes yes
Thulasi says:
weird looking things
Thulasi says:
unnatural i must say
joyce.†*~ says:
like daddylonglegs


I miss you momo! :(