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The sky just got a whole lot brighter

She cares.
And that's all that really matters.
I love you babe. (:

=(

Let's say I tell my mother that I don't have my results for last sem because the system jammed up. And so my results were erased from the system and there is absolutely no chance of ever getting them back!
You think she'll buy it?

In threes

Twist to the right
And then turn to the left
Be careful now. It's fragile.
Yes that's it.
Red. Blue. Green. Yellow
I have seen them all. Felt them all
A change of hands
Now you try.
It's easy. She's easy.
My heart- The Rubrik Cube.

Paint me the pretty picture




I love thee, I love but thee
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold
And the stars grow old.
~ Willam Shakespeare ~

“If I were the moon, I know where I would fall down”

In the face of all that we can lose in a day, in an instance, wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it all together.
Meredith Grey

The reality's some pretty powerful stuff. Funny how you only realise that when you're totally disconnected from everything that matters to you. Yesterday was refreshing. I miss that. Quite abit. That serene feeling lasted for what 5 hours and then before I knew it I was thrown back into what I detest the most- reality. Oh well. Atleast on the bright side (whatever little there is of it left), I think I might actually know what I want! =)

I need a job! Fast!

Meet Stuffy-Muffy!

I love you stuffy! (although we haven't really met but what the heck yes?) =)

I'm losing everything I believe in. Talk about being random huh? Okay so maybe I'm not being random. I'm confusing myself. Yes that's it. I'm confused. Ah much better.

Move through the world as though it offers no resistance

I can't pretend I am unnerved by what happened just now. I can't keep pretending anymore. For that split second, I felt real. Something I haven't felt in a bit. The nonchalent act's wearing off. Fear. Anger. Guilt. Disgust. Helplessness. You name it. I felt it all. Just in that fraction of that second. Overwhelming? Yes pretty much.
It's not funny anymore. Especially when your mother begs that you get your act together. I don't know. How did I let myself mess up this much? My pirorities have gone awry. Nothing bothers me anymore. And that's not a good thing. I do what makes ME happy for the moment. Fuck the consequences. Fuck the people who matter. How did I let it go this far?
And yes my dear mother I am cold and heartless. You couldn't have put it any better if I must say so myself.

All that matters

Yea sure I dont know what I'm doing and neither do you. Fair enough. I have always envisioned things to be a beguiling mix of both the ordinary and the extraodinary. And I am living that. I'm making mistakes and learning from them. I'm living for the moment. And as scary as that might be, I'm discovering different aspects of myself that I never knew about.
So go on then, continue judging me. Tell me I'm an impulsive, irrational wreck. Tell me I'm screwing up my life. Why stop at thinking all these stuff yes? Hah.

come home soon button. =(

The Becoming

My exams are over. I have 3 months free. With absolutely nothing to do. And yet I dont feel the slightest bit happy. gah.

I'm weird

You know you're weird,

when you get emo while watching BINGO.

when you spend a good 15 minutes trying to raise one eyebrow while keeping the other down.

when you refuse to believe that Eygpt is part of Africa even though you know its true.

when you watch the same episode of America's Next Top Model 23 times JUST to hear Jade talk about her brunetteness and to hear the rest of her extensive vocabulary!

when you believe the weather's in sync with your mood swings.

when you think Csikszentmihalyi is the coolest name ever.

Mess

I am one big mess. I'm breaking promises. I'm doing things that I shouldn't be doing. I'm hurting the very person who means the world to me. I'm fucking up. Real bad.

Six and a half days

The bloody coordinator from work pissed me off. Like seriously what the hell is wrong with her???
My paper sucked. Big time. I couldnt make sense of anything.
Stuffed my face with doughnuts in a desperate attempt to lift my low spirits. I ended up feeling worse. That is of course after I figured out how much calories the doughnuts contained! That round thing in my middle (I think it was previously referred to as my tummy) is expanding. At an alarming rate.
I am a little confused now.
And the person that I would really like to talk to now is MIA.
Sigh. I love my life.

UGH

Exams I beg you, be gone!

*sighs*

It felt right. Nice even. But only for that fleeting moment. And then it all sinks in. As always. It's becoming somewhat of a ritual. I have to constantly keep myself in check. Trust me the last thing I want to do right now is to screw up. And it doesn't help that there's always some shadow or another lurking in the background.

The other side of this life (Part 2)

Thank you for making things a hell lot better!

Here's to more nausea-inducing names, pointless debates on just about everything, soccer lessons, good food, shopping escapades and of course emo moments at our little emo spot!

Mucho love my dear friend! =)

P.S how about passing me the shirt you bought for me sometime soon huh!

Of all the things to mull over!

Sigmund Freud is said to have pondered over this on his deathbed, "Women-what do they want?"
Men. *rolls eyes* Of all the questions to ask, he decides to ask the very one question that even most women themselves are clueless about. And that too on his deathbed! A little late to be figuring out the fairer sex ain't it? Geesh man.

I miss you! =)

Breathe

Gah. I am feeling horribly overwhelmed!

=/

Okay so maybe I kinda overreacted. But that's nothing out of the ordinary for me. My name's pretty much synonymous with the dramatic.

The heart of the matter

'The first time I ever saw Becky Bloomwood...' He pauses, a tiny smile on his lips. 'She was asking a bank marketing department why they didnt produce a cheque-book in different colours.'
'The next year they did produce chequebooks covers in different colours. Becky's instincts match no one else's. Becky has ideas no one else has. Her mind goes to places no one else's does. And sometimes I'm lucky enough to go along with her.' Luke's eyes meet mine, soft and warm. 'Yes she shops. Yes she does crazy things. But she makes me laugh. She makes me enjoy life. And I love her more than anything else in this world.'

Sophie Kinsella

I want to be able to do that someday.

Band-aids cover the bullet hole

I feel all trampled over. Betrayed even. Hah. Oh well. I should have seen it coming. So whatever.
I think I more or less know what I am going to do. And since its about my fucking happiness here, I don't see the need to provide any explanations whatsoever for my actions. To anyone for that matter.
I am hurt. But I'll get over it.

Blues for sister someone

We're dying aren't we now? Raking up the past was never a good idea. It forces you to question the basis of what we shared. There wasn't much was there? Strangely, I always thought there was. Something that no one else shared.

....

This too will pass yes?

Deterioration of the Fight or Flight response

I don't know myself inside out. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I want to do in the future. Hell I don't even know what my favourite colour is. But what I do know is that I know myself way better than you do. So please quit thinking that you know me inside out. Cause frankly you don't. Don't try to figure me out. Don't try to contextualize my every action or every word that I utter. I cannot stress how much that annoys me.

The BIG 2-0

Turning 20 has been nothing short of amazing! I'm desperately hoping this year's gonna be a lot better. I need it to be better.

Break on through

I had the most productive day ever. *rolls eyes*
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother going to school!
The day started off with Cnm tutorial. During which I completely zonked out. C'mon it was 10 am! I had no idea what everyone was rambling on and on about!
Skipped Perfumes and Cosmetics. As usual. What's new?
Had a conversation with Joyce about herself. Her exact words were, "I think we should talk about me!" And so we did.
Explained to Sam about my closet skank status. Oh wait, I'm in the open now!
Contemplated marrying a fishmonger. For some weird reason I thought it'll be cool to be a fishmonger's wife!
Debated quite a bit on what I should major in. Yes I still have no clue.
Went for Malay lecture. Had another mini picnic.
Waltzed off to Vivo. Joyce and I were searching for a blue eyeliner. We ended up doing a little grocery shopping as well. I bought cereals! =)
I got home and slept for a good 2 hours. I kinda woke up at 9 actually. But I simply refused to get up then. I actually thought I had school. So I pretended to oversleep. (It works. All the time!) I somehow managed to overlook the fact that it was 9pm! And besides I don't even have school on Fridays! So I have no idea what exactly I was trying to do! Talk about being disorientated. Geesh.



I'm turning 20. I'm ageing. I'm gonna get all wrinkly and droopy in no time! =(


Okay. The truth is, I don't like any of this. Not one bit.

Into you like a train

Some of the best things in life are total mistakes. Trust me if I could do it all over again, I wouldn't wanna change anything. Not one bit at all. I may not like who I have become or agree with what I am doing right now. But there's something I have taken away from this mess. And in due time, I hope I get my act together. Preferably sooner.

The BIG 2-0's approaching! UGH.

=]

Nutella=cellulite
Cheese=muffin top
Cheese crackers (I had 17 of them mind you)= 1 fat but HAPPY
thuls

Funny how I still don't get it huh!

The self-destruct button

If only anyone knew how fucking difficult this is. I mean really. Nothing bright and sunny is gonna come out of this. I have a gazillion obligations, a good number of promises that I cannot and will not break and a hell lot of personal issues of my own to sort out. I don't have time to think of what I want let alone of what I'm doing. I'm getting scared. I don't want to mess up.

Straits Kitchen

=((((((

Breathe Thuls breathe.

From a whisper to a scream

I want to do this by myself. Alone. And contrary to what everyone thinks, I can handle this. I want to do it my way. And I want to make sure it's the right way. So I pray thee, let me. Let me handle this my way.

She keeps me grounded



a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
this is as babies
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
guess who's who
thuls says:
you're the brown one! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
to now
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hehe yea im zee brown one
thuls says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
thuls says:
Love the peektures!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hahahah
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
merci beacoup
thuls says:
and I LOVE YOU
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hehe i do too(:

The other side of this life :)

Scars and Souvenirs

It feels like the scab on my knee. I'm always picking at it when I know I shouldn't be doing so. Scars never go away. They serve as a reminder-of what you should not have done. Or rather what you should have done. But I love how I'm always left with a personalised souvenir. My very own souvenir to myself.
Hamlet wasn't the only one with the dilemma. Gah.

Wasted

Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it

For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna take it

I don't wanna spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.

Cause I don't wanna spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

She kept drivin along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while

Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

Oh, I don't wanna spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Yeah, yeah
Oh I don't wanna keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

Wasted
Carrie Underwoods.

This is what I feel like now- wasted.

When all fails.. GROW A BOYFRIEND!!


Meet Chace Mooki!

He's perfect. Well almost. Blue's not exactly his best colour and I'm not exactly crazy about his groovy blue hair-do. But I'll make do! I mean c'mon right? The guy NEVER argues! What's a little blue hair!

Didn't we almost have it all?

I'll like to think I almost had everything. I don't know what's going on with me anymore. I really don't.

=(

I miss button!

Don't Forget To Remember Me

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big old place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But don't forget to remember me.

Don't forget to remember me
Carrie Underwoods

Monday Blues at its worst

I hate Mondays. I feel all so depressed and unmotivated. Especially when I have to go to school on MONDAY during RECESS WEEK for a 10am class. During which I completely zonked out. And of course, the tutor had to pick this fine day to work my brain. Unfortunately, my brain refused to cooperate. Oh and did I mention that I couldn't find ANYTHING this morning? My contacts, my t-shirt, my cardigan, my ASSIGNMENT and of course my shoes. Nothing. I ended up being late and horribly mismatched.
AND I got lost again. This would make it the third time this week. First, at the pyschology department on Monday (I ended up in some dark stairwell), then at the Engineering Faculty on Thursday (I ended up in the gas chamber) and at SGH today.
Actually, I can't decide whether I hate Mondays or Sundays more.

Tell me sweet little lies

You don't know a good thing
Until its gone.
And found someone else.
Right. Hah.

Staring at the Sun

I feel like I'm on a permanent high. I'm dealing. In the worst way possible. But I'm dealing. And that's all that really matters isn't it?

We're at it again!

Thulasi says:
ah you're here!
Thulasi says:
let's run away
Thulasi says:
to france
Thulasi says:
we'll be farmers!
Thulasi says:
what say you??
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
france aint nice
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
lets go to italy and be gypsies!
Thulasi says:
okay!
Thulasi says:
brilliant plan!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
okay so when do we leave?!
Thulasi says:
i say tomorrow
Thulasi says:
let's pack our bags this instant!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
okayyyyyy!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
okay what do we bring
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
lets discuss
Thulasi says:
scarves!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
its spring there now right!
Thulasi says:
BIG hoop earrings
Thulasi says:
is it?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
but if we're staying till winter we gotta bring winter clothes
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
shoesssss!
Thulasi says:
oh yea
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
bags
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
lots and lots of pretty clothes!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
its italy!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
SHADES
Thulasi says:
but we're gypsies!
Thulasi says:
we're supposed to look mismatched!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea true that
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
but then again we may need to pick pockets here and there
Thulasi says:
ah yes
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
so we need shades to disguise ourselves!
Thulasi says:
so we need to look like we fit in!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yesyes
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
thank god we dont need bronzers to do the trick!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
our skin colours ought to do
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
HAHAH
Thulasi says:
yes we're all nice and bronze already!
Thulasi says:
do we have to look ugly?!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
nooooo
Thulasi says:
cause i would relly like to look pretty
Thulasi says:
really*
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
gypsies are usually quite pretty
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
!
Thulasi says:
but the ones i have seen are all scruffy and evil looking!
Thulasi says:
i want to be a nice pretty one!
Thulasi says:
you can be the evil one!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we'll be the exception!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
NO
Thulasi says:
how about that!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
DONT BE MEAN
Thulasi says:
hahahahah
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
then you go yourself
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hmph
Thulasi says:
oh no dont do this to me
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
say you'll be the evil one and ill go
Thulasi says:
i might get abducted if i go alone
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
quick
Thulasi says:
what?!
Thulasi says:
okay okay
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
if not you go aloneeeeeee
Thulasi says:
i'll be the evil one
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
haha YES!
Thulasi says:
i'll secretly be nice!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hahah
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
fineee
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
what else what else!
Thulasi says:
hmm..
Thulasi says:
what else do we need?
Thulasi says:
can i hire escorts?!
Thulasi says:
winks
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
ewwww
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
dont need to hire
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
the bees will come where there is honey
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
hawhaw
Thulasi says:
mmmm.. i is loving this
Thulasi says:
the gypsy life!
Thulasi says:
no tutorials. no lectures. no projects.
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yessss
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
no boys to worry about cos there'll be so many there!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we'll be freeeeeeee
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
and happyyyy
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
i wanttttttt
Thulasi says:
me too
Thulasi says:
shall we leave this mundane life behind and run!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yes of course!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
tomorrow meet me at changi airport at 11!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
ill sneak out when my mum's at the market
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we'll see what happens from there!
Thulasi says:
okay!
Thulasi says:
i'll get my mum to go to the shop at that time!
Thulasi says:
shall i bring sunshine?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
NO
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
he's too big
Thulasi says:
whyyyy???
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
he'll give us away!
Thulasi says:
we can shrink him!
Thulasi says:
stuff him into a bag or smth!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
okay let me cast a spell now~
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
itsybitsyspidershrinksunshiney!!boomboom
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
is sunshine small yet!!
Thulasi says:
oh my!
Thulasi says:
yes he is!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
oh YES!
Thulasi says:
he looks like a rat!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
it worked!
Thulasi says:
yes it did!
Thulasi says:
well done gypsy!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
i must remember to bring my wand to italy!
Thulasi says:
oh oh we need new names!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
oh yess!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
thusithulla!
Thulasi says:
ewwww
Thulasi says:
something a little more sexy please!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
thulabella!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
thusibella?
Thulasi says:
HAHAHAH
Thulasi says:
not working for me still!
Thulasi says:
you can be ranbun!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
what!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
it sounds like a name you'll name sunshine!
Thulasi says:
oh no not very gypsy sounding is it?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
Thulasi says:
okay i'll try again!
Thulasi says:
how about ranzella!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
okay!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
it sounds niceeeeeee
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yay!
Thulasi says:
sister of godzilla!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
HEY
Thulasi says:
HAHHAHAH
Thulasi says:
oops i meant gonzilla
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
im ZELLA NOT ZILLA
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
whos gonzilla?!
Thulasi says:
same difference!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
HAHAHAHAH
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
its GODZILLA
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
stupidddddd
Thulasi says:
whatever that ugly thing is called!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
youre THUZILLA!
Thulasi says:
keshini told me it was the other one!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
its decided then!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yay!
Thulasi says:
okay ranzella!
Thulasi says:
brb i need to bathe!
Thulasi says:
i dont want to bathe tml!
Thulasi says:
gypsies smell bad right?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
NO
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
ewww
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
you dirty girl
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
shoo go bathe
Thulasi says:
but dont they always look dirty?
Thulasi says:
i bet they smell too ranzella!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
noo they dont!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
you can be the dirty gypsy if you like
Thulasi says:
no no
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
im not going to!
Thulasi says:
i prefer to look clean
Thulasi says:
and smell nice
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
then the guys will run away form you and ill have them all for myself!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yay!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
be dirty be dirty!
Thulasi says:
that is NOT gonna happen!
Thulasi says:
we share!
Thulasi says:
SHARE!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
you're the one who wanted to be dirtyyyyyyy
Thulasi says:
no i thought that we're supposed to be dirty!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
nooooooooooooooooooooooooo
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
no
Thulasi says:
okay fine
Thulasi says:
i'll smell them in Italy!
Thulasi says:
and then we'll see who's right!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea of courseeee
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we need our long flowery skirtsss
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
or any long flowy skirts for that matter
Thulasi says:
i hate long stuff!
Thulasi says:
i like skirts short!
Thulasi says:
but i'll settle for long ones
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
but gypsies dont wear short skirts doofus!
Thulasi says:
true that
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
they'll think youre a skank if you wear a short skirt
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
HAHAH
Thulasi says:
LOL
Thulasi says:
oh dear
Thulasi says:
ITALY! here we come!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea baybeh!
Thulasi says:
with our long flowy skirts
Thulasi says:
big hoops
Thulasi says:
scarves
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
our bronzed skins
Thulasi says:
ah yes
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
nice namessss
Thulasi says:
love it!
Thulasi says:
just think!
Thulasi says:
all the men waiting there for us!
Thulasi says:
i bet they'll find us exotic!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
and much more than just men!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
they get boring after a while
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
-yawn-
Thulasi says:
yes
Thulasi says:
men are boring!
Thulasi says:
not to mention gross
Thulasi says:
FOOD!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
OH YES
Thulasi says:
food will be my best friend! my bestest friend!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
endless amounts of pasta and the likes
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yummyyyyyyyyyy
Thulasi says:
let's stay home and eat all day!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
of course food will be your number 2 best friend!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
IM FIRST
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
NO
Thulasi says:
no one will see our tummies under the flowy skirts!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we need to pick pockets to earn $$ to buy food dummy
Thulasi says:
oh yea!
Thulasi says:
oops
Thulasi says:
it'll be like oliver twist!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
albeit more eggciting ill like ot think!
Thulasi says:
i cant wait!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea!
Thulasi says:
have you packed all your stuff?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
im packing!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
i just chose my suitcase
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
its HUGE
Thulasi says:
i cant find a scruffy looking one!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
so i can dump everything inside
Thulasi says:
that's a good thing!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
we aint goanna bring it ard so we can chuck it at the hotel
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
no one will see!
Thulasi says:
we stay at the hotel?!
Thulasi says:
i was thinking more like somewhere in the woods
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
for the first day!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
so we can eat and enjoy at least for the first day before we set off
Thulasi says:
ah okay
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
and gypsies dont stay in the woods woman!
Thulasi says:
they dont?!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
they stay in caravans!
Thulasi says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
i think
HAHAHA
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
but im positive they dont stay in the woods
Thulasi says:
the caravans are stationed in the woods arent they?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
noo!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
they are in those funfair like bazaars!
Thulasi says:
Right. I knew that!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea im sureeeeeeee thuzilla
Thulasi says:
hahahaha
Thulasi says:
alrightey ranzella i'm off to pack!
Thulasi says:
see you tml! 11 at changi!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
please specify changi airport
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
just changi is soooo
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
wrong
Thulasi says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Thulasi says:
changi airport!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
aye be there on time!
Thulasi says:
i'm always on time!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
alright bonsoir!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
(i dont know italian so ill use french for the time being=D)
Thulasi says:
i know neither!
Thulasi says:
will malay do?
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
yea sure!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
who cares
Thulasi says:
BYE RANZELLA!
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
BYE THUZILLA
a dark silhouette against a bright background says:
tomorrow is THE day!

This reminds me of the time we planned to tour EUROPE after our PSLE! That was one hell of a good plan! I actually drew up a list of things to bring for that! Too bad we never got to go!

I LOVE TOYS'R'US!



Devi, lost under the HUGE cap

I love Ariel!

I had so much fun at TOYS'R'US!

Presenting CANDIE!

We were bored.

:)

I'll find it one day. Just not now I guess.

Burnt

Never blow-dry your hair and text at the same time. The hair-dryer deserves your undivided attention. I had to learn that the hard way. I managed to get my hair stuck in the hair-dryer TWICE. And now the ends are burnt. Horribly Charred in fact. Oh well.

Siva Annah

Chairs being thrown about. The Oorvasi song and the weird dance choregraphed to that. The zoo outing. The annual beach trips. The Birthday Parties. Harry Potter. MacDonald's. The best decision I ever made in my life and what you taught me about it. ( Now that I think about it, I'm glad you interferred. Really I am. I would probably be stuck in the same rut had you not). The chocolates, chips and coke. Our love for animals- Hugo, Prince, Princess and Sunshine. The over-protectiveness ( I know you meant well).

We have grown apart over the years. I'm never home when you drop by to visit. And even when I am, we always manage to disagree on something. The last three days were awesome. I had a chance to relive those moments again. And as strange as it may be, I'll miss you annah.

The Good Old Days


These are just some of the photos I found while looking for photos for Siva Annah's wedding reception.

My Birthday.

At the Zoo.

Dawn and Siva Annah

Haarveen and me. I was a little retarded back then too.

Siva Annah. Me. Dinesh. Haarv. Nantha Annah

I think we were at Terengganu.

I remember this oh so damn well! I was having a cold. So I wasn't allowed to have anything. BUT my dear mum made sure they had a constant supply of coke as well as ice cream! Grrr...

Keshini

Random nothings

1) I'm beyond pissed. Especially when I had to wait three and a half hours (Yes THREE AND A HALF HOURS) for an ass who decides a minute before I meet him that he's actually feeling kinda tired. Grrrr.. I could have used that time to sleep! THREE AND A HALF HOURS of sleep would have done me good! Oh and did I mention that meeting up was his idea in the first place.
2) I swore 11 times today. That's a record for me. Since I hardly swear much.
3) My hair is destined to remain the way it is- Boring.
4) I spent an hour in Vivo and 45 Minutes in Tekka. All alone. Yea I know I am a loser.
5) I went to school for a mere half an hour.

Testing 1-2-3

I miss the kiddies at the centre. I miss knowing what its like to have sisters- Sisters whom I can share the most intimate details of my life with. I miss seeing home as something more than a lodge. I miss my secret cupboard space. I miss my ugly BUT comfortable blue jeans. I miss playing the piano. I miss my labels. I miss trying. I miss me. Yea. I miss me.

I wanna run away!

Retail therapy didn't work. Neither did the chocolates. Nor the sleep. Gah. I hate school! I'm considering running away and joining the circus!
RIP Heath Ledger.

I fell

Expectations set you up for the biggest fall ever. And its difficult to walk away from that fall unscathed. Very difficult. But it is equally diffcult to declare that you have no expectations whatsoever. Cause in truth, everyone has expectations. Be it conscious or unconscious. I am not doing the right thing am I?

Everything about nothing

School starts on Monday.
I had a fall out with my sister.
And to top it all off, I am STILL very much confused.

I am not being fair. Yes I know. And I'm not particularly comfortable with that. Everyone deserves a chance. But I don't want to take that chance. I don't want to take any more chances actually.

Joy Anandha

She makes me REALLY happy!

A walk to remember

I can turn and run the other direction right now. But I'm not going to. I am scared. Sure. But then again who isn't?

I need some pushing!

I should run. Right about now actually. But my butt's glued to the couch. I can't move. Or rather I don't want to. I'm fine with being pudgy! I think. Atleast til I realise how flabby my arms are. Gah.

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I’m not cute or built to suit a model’s fashion size
But when I start to tell them
They think I’m telling lies.
I say
It’s in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips
The stride of my steps
The curl of my lips.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That’s me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please
And to a man
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees
Then they swarm around me
A hive of honey bees.
I say
It’s the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth
The swing of my waist
And the joy in my feet.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That’s me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me
They try so much
But they can’t touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can’t see.
I say
It’s in the arch of my back
The sun of my smile
The ride of my breasts
The grace of my style.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That’s me.

Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say
It’s in the click of my heels
The bend of my hair
The palm of my hand
The need for my care.
‘Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That’s me.

Maya Angelou

I just love this piece! Beautiful ain't it?

All over again

And so 2007 is about to come to an end. I must say the year passed by pretty fast. Yet 2007 has been one of my more eventful years.
I discovered aspects of myself that I never knew about.
I started school.
I realised how much I love children.
I worked for the first time in my life.
I learnt about relationships- how they work, how I wanted them to work and how they actually work.
I faced my deepest fears head-on.
Star gazing by the beach was an amazing experience.
I learnt to accept things as they were.
I cried lots.
I learnt to be grateful.
I lied. And I'm not exactly proud of that.
I learnt to let things go.
Sunshine is now hot-dog.
I learnt to forgive.
I opened up to someone I hardly knew. That still surprises me.
I learnt to believe in myself.
Spirit week was embarassing yet memorable. I love my red soccer socks. Now all I need is another chance to wear it!
I changed my mind a gazillion times.
I considered getting a piercing and a tattoo.
Meowy became an unofficial part of our family.
I made tons of new friends.
I did something I usually would have never considered doing.

Well I guess that pretty much sums up 2007. It has been a year of bittersweet moments. Yes a year of my bittersweet moments. I can't wait for 2008! An entire new year. 365 more days of bittersweet experiences. I don't usually believe in new year resolutions. But for 2008 I hope I learn to be a better person.

Happy New Year everybody!

Blood's thicker than water huh?

I hate extended family gatherings. I hate having to sit in one corner with a plastic smile plastered on my face. Not that I am the only one doing the whole plastic act. I hate not being able to be myself. I hate having to associate with people I don't have a single thing in common with. I hate having to restrain myself from saying the wrong things. I hate how everything I say or do is being judged. The only reason we're family is because we don't have much of a choice. Other than that, there's nothing binding us. Nothing at all.

I miss you dude. Sigh. Funny how I still think of you after all these years. Oh well. I just hope all is well with you. Much love my dear friend.

Rudolph the red nose reindeer

I'm pretty sure I can pass off as Rudolph now with all the trauma my poor nose has gone through. Days before Christmas and I have to fall sick!! The only good thing that has come out of falling ill is not being able to go to Jb! =)

Yesterday's magic show was brilliant. It was meant for the kids but I think I was the one who was in awe half the time!

Merry Christmas!

=/

I can't possibly be having a mid-life crisis now can I? Nah. I think terming it my quarter life- crisis woud be more appropriate. Yes that's it! I'm having a quarter-life crisis. Gah.
You know I would really like to talk to a stranger right about now. Don't ask. We'll just dismiss it as being part of my quarter-life crisis.

Haarveen's Birthday!


And so yes, Haarveen's finally 18! Finally.







Haarveen can never keep her eyes open for long. I really don't know why!




The yummy tapas

Mum and Dad.

I just realised! Keshini's missing!

I should be shot!

Haarveen's right. I should be shot dead. Hitler stlyle.
And here's why. More reasons to add to the already never ending list.
1) Today, while walking through town, I got really irritated with the old woman in front of me who was walking at an excruciating slow pace. I should be shot yes? She was an OLD woman who probably had trouble walking.
2) I am self-centered.
3) I am a bad sister. Just ask Keshini. She'll agree on that.
There's more but I'll stop here. I shouldn't give Haarveen more reasons to prove her point!

Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we are made. And so you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them.
Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

I feel like I have wasted a hell lot of time keeping people out. I have missed out on so much with all the lines that I have drawn. I don't think I'll ever know what's it like to have a best friend- the kind that every other person has (not my definition of one). I don't think I have ever ventured into my intimate thoughts with anyone. I don't think I'll know what it is like to be downright honest with what I feel or think. I'm terribly afraid of people being up close. I don't quite know why. I guess I just feel safer that way.

I surrender!

It's official- I am a goner. And you know what? I give up! =)

All Love

I feel like Aunt Agony. No really. Funny how I can never sort out my own issues then. I'm not sure if I would like to take the risk and put myself out there again. And about my initial plan to keep my distance? Well, let's just say that's not going too well. Gah. And it doesn't help that there's something else bugging me on top of all this. I don't wanna have to compromise on anything and I feel like I cannot keep up with any of this anymore. I'm gonna do the usual. One thing at a time. We'll see. Or maybe not.

I met Rabeeah on Tuesday after AGES. Lots of love, shopping and gossip! =)

The Stress Reduction Kit!




Haarveen making FULL use of the kit!

I hate them all, sun-kissed or not!

Lately, I have developed this strong dislike towards raisins! And for some strange reason I have been seeing raisins just about everywhere. Just two days ago, the kid beside me was munching on raisins. Goodness knows how he managed to stuff the entire handful of that shrivelled up grapes into his mouth. Yesterday, I found raisins in my chocolate cake! Who in the right mind puts raisins in chocolate cakes?! And today I found raisins in my bread (I somehow managed to overlook the fact that it was a raisin loaf BUT that's besides the point) and the only chocolate bar around had raisins in it!

Men in Black

Rain on the Rainbow

There we go again.
Sigh.

Hurry home Bunny!

Rani. Dad. Mum. Me

I miss Ranitha. It's pretty weird cause she just left. =(
I didn't think I'll miss her this much. But I guess I'm way too used to talking to her everyday or atleast every other day. I feel like I need to pick up the phone and tell her something absolutely random now. I have so much to say, so much to complain and to whine about. I want to talk about senseless garb. I want to hear about men and their ways. I want to discuss our dreams- both hers and mine. I want to talk about clothes, shoes and bags. I want to bitch about anyone and everything. I want to make plans. I want to fantasize about my future. Our future.
My cousin and one of my best friends. 19 years and counting. =)

Star

Just your heart in exchange for mine.
It's that simple.

Sorry Weber =(

I dont think I'm gonna be able to get that A after today's paper. It was pretty alright but I feel like I screwed it up. Oh well.
And so much for the much anticipated CHEESECAKE FEST! =/